Re: I miss this place.
Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2018 6:44 pm
I miss this place too. And drifting. And all of my best buds.
I freaked out about social media about 8 months ago. I haven't outright deleted everything... but I feel like I'm close. I deactivated everything that I wasn't ready to delete. I even pulled my own website down. I realized I'd been incessantly broadcasting my life in some way/shape/form for well over 15 years. The realization that I had was that... no one really cares. I mean... maybe a tight-knit group of my best friends/family do/did... but those are all the same people that I can interact with in real life - so this digital projection was really only satisfying the part of my ego that thought that shouting into the online void mattered. The comments and likes perpetuated that delusion... but my epiphany has been - that it doesn't.
I've also realized that all of it made me addicted to my phone. I mean... 8 months of no social media... and I still find myself just holding my phone and staring at it. Just blankly staring at the home screen on my phone. That terrifies me. I think society as a whole is addicted to their devices... and there's no way it's healthy. I see it in every corner of the globe that I travel to. People are more concerned with sharing a moment online than actually experiencing it in real life... or too caught up in their phones to experience the things happening around them. Maybe my age is starting to set in... but it all just feels wrong.
I didn't mean to go on a rant my FOERST time posting here in over 2 years. I guess this shit has really been bothering me... and this place feels like home so I can vent.
Love you guys. Miss you guys.
I freaked out about social media about 8 months ago. I haven't outright deleted everything... but I feel like I'm close. I deactivated everything that I wasn't ready to delete. I even pulled my own website down. I realized I'd been incessantly broadcasting my life in some way/shape/form for well over 15 years. The realization that I had was that... no one really cares. I mean... maybe a tight-knit group of my best friends/family do/did... but those are all the same people that I can interact with in real life - so this digital projection was really only satisfying the part of my ego that thought that shouting into the online void mattered. The comments and likes perpetuated that delusion... but my epiphany has been - that it doesn't.
I've also realized that all of it made me addicted to my phone. I mean... 8 months of no social media... and I still find myself just holding my phone and staring at it. Just blankly staring at the home screen on my phone. That terrifies me. I think society as a whole is addicted to their devices... and there's no way it's healthy. I see it in every corner of the globe that I travel to. People are more concerned with sharing a moment online than actually experiencing it in real life... or too caught up in their phones to experience the things happening around them. Maybe my age is starting to set in... but it all just feels wrong.
I didn't mean to go on a rant my FOERST time posting here in over 2 years. I guess this shit has really been bothering me... and this place feels like home so I can vent.
Love you guys. Miss you guys.